Berlin artists Corlyx move to the UK to complete their highly conceptualized Dark Electro Grunge album IN2 THE SKIN, out August 16th 2019. “This album came to me after a very sudden realization of all of the traumas I was continually suppressing, I was in denial, overshadowed with unbearable pain of things in my past, the demons began to surface… but why now, I thought?” says singer Caitlin Stokes.
She continues, “IN2 THE SKIN talks about traumas of the flesh, our body, the way we see it, those of us who are different, the way we cope, and abuse. The hardest 2 tracks for me to write were ‘Deform’, I sing about my spinal surgery I had at 14 from severe scoliosis, I have a condition called Marfan Syndrome and it’s riddled my life with health issues and a very odd appearance; ‘why can’t I be like you’ is one of the lyrics that is so real for me. The second toughest is the last track on the record ‘DreamGirl’ that talks about rape. I don’t want to go into detail publicly about ‘DreamGirl’ but if you are triggered by that discussion definitely skip the last song on the album. When Brandon Ashley (my co producer/band mate) was mixing these songs we became physically ill and had to take mental health breaks, hearing the lyrics over and over, one day I had the biggest anxiety attack of my life because of a session, Brandon almost vomited after I tracked it. It was torture honestly and I’m not sure I will be able to perform these songs live. But now after all of this, a weight has lifted.
This record isn’t just about me though, it’s about the broader picture of the psychological effects of things that happen to our skin, I speak about my body sometimes like it’s not even a part of me, this happened to my skin not to me I would often think, shoving the pain deep down, hoping it would never surface. Not all tracks are this dark, I also talk a lot about BDSM/fetish and it’s role as a therapy for trauma victims, people who need to work out their shit.
So why IN2 THE SKIN now? I constantly surrounded myself with drama, if I had other things and people to worry about, toxic relationships to hurt me, then I wouldn’t have to face my own demons. In my conscious I continually told myself I hated drama and pain, yet I dated womanizers and I worked as a neurosurgical trauma nurse at a very busy hospital in Los Angeles, constant adrenaline, stress and hurt, all necessary distractions. The only way I realize this now is when I finally removed all the bad people, I quit my stressful job, started doing music full time, digging deep for creativity, this huge blackness came over me, I fell into the deepest most paralyzing depression of my life. Everything around me is so perfect and beautiful and all I could feel was this nagging sadness and pain scratching it’s way to the surface. At first like I always do, I was in denial I was feeling this way, kept having anxiety attacks out of nowhere, my body craved stress like an addict, it wanted someone to hurt me. Then slowly I began to talk to my partner about my feelings and like a waterfall of tears and anguish I knew I had to work on myself, and address my past. That’s what IN2 THE SKIN is and to all the Dark Beauty readers out there, this is what dark beauty means to me, the final realization of all the pain you’ve been suppressing boiling out of you at once, letting the darkness out turning it into beautiful art.”